I've decided to spark ye old blog back up again. My last post has been over I would guess over two years ago. Things have changed, as they do. My arm is running at about 70% which is great news cause it means I can get things done no worse off than before wrecking myself.
Getting this rolling again is the beginning of the next chapter, out of the darkness and into the kitchen! A lot happens in life, I'm starting to forget most of my old adventures and interesting thoughts and ideas. This place is a great medium to preserve them. I've had a good few tails the last month or so. The next week or so I'll make sure to jot a few down.
Take care
Friday, June 11, 2010
Friday, November 21, 2008
Perspective
It's been some time since I've written anything on this page. Many of you have long since left been checking this, rightfully so. I've been self consumed and selfish. Utterly indulged.
A brief update, my 7th surgery passed not 6 weeks back. A bone graft to my once shattered Tibia. Well, they decided to break it again. Chainsaw some bone out of my left hip, as to avoid the healing shattered right end of the cradle. Once a donor piece was salvaged they grind it up and stuff it into the newly broken donor site, that being my left leg. I'm growing weary.
I'm walking again, gaining my spirits. My bicep has a flicker, the first big step. I don't know what to think. I'm no longer the person I used to be. Do I want it to heal, I define myself by my gimp now. Weird I know, but true. No movement but a chance, a new chance.
Perspective is all about the beholder. On one side I have a friend whose lost the use of his legs speaking of his time, on the other side a guy complaining about his cuticle. Somewhere I lie between. Perspective is simply each his own.
I remember, as a wee gaffer, the insatiable appetite of the climber to attest to the "Hardness" of ones ascent. "The hardest scariest thing I've done", you don't have to flip to any page of any climbing magazine to read the like. Fair enough. Recently this got me thinking of what "hard" was. I think that humanity has propensity for suffering. And, trying to climb, work, battle through a difficult route, mountain or problem is a manifestation of that. At the end, an achievement of progress, conquest or growth. But all personal. In the end, that's all I ever asked for from life, the experience. Mine at the moment is simply trying to heal to live normally. Its kind of refreshing. Why is that? Really, what is hard?
I'll never use the word "Hard" again in the same way
A brief update, my 7th surgery passed not 6 weeks back. A bone graft to my once shattered Tibia. Well, they decided to break it again. Chainsaw some bone out of my left hip, as to avoid the healing shattered right end of the cradle. Once a donor piece was salvaged they grind it up and stuff it into the newly broken donor site, that being my left leg. I'm growing weary.
I'm walking again, gaining my spirits. My bicep has a flicker, the first big step. I don't know what to think. I'm no longer the person I used to be. Do I want it to heal, I define myself by my gimp now. Weird I know, but true. No movement but a chance, a new chance.
Perspective is all about the beholder. On one side I have a friend whose lost the use of his legs speaking of his time, on the other side a guy complaining about his cuticle. Somewhere I lie between. Perspective is simply each his own.
I remember, as a wee gaffer, the insatiable appetite of the climber to attest to the "Hardness" of ones ascent. "The hardest scariest thing I've done", you don't have to flip to any page of any climbing magazine to read the like. Fair enough. Recently this got me thinking of what "hard" was. I think that humanity has propensity for suffering. And, trying to climb, work, battle through a difficult route, mountain or problem is a manifestation of that. At the end, an achievement of progress, conquest or growth. But all personal. In the end, that's all I ever asked for from life, the experience. Mine at the moment is simply trying to heal to live normally. Its kind of refreshing. Why is that? Really, what is hard?
I'll never use the word "Hard" again in the same way
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
The change begins
A couple days ago my brother hooked me up with a new Mountain Bike. The last couple days I've been hammering it per say. Leaving the Demon behind if you will. Honestly its the first time I've felt human in 7 months. Getting out in the mountains again, the best I can, it's like a bird with a broken wing, wrangling turns with one arm. Low impact on the lower extremities. Getting used to speed and mental engagement. I've been smiling.
One of the most difficult things with this has been finding a means to ventilate. Instead of hitting the Canmore Hoe or getting loaded, bar fights climbing kept me out of trouble so the Demon couldn't take hold. This mountain bike thing just might be able to hold it at bay. We'll see.
Update on the Arm. Non yet, but the time is coming close. The next few months are going to say a lot. The pain is getting worse, not sure if thats a good sign but I guess pain is better than nothing.
Will keep apprised.
One of the most difficult things with this has been finding a means to ventilate. Instead of hitting the Canmore Hoe or getting loaded, bar fights climbing kept me out of trouble so the Demon couldn't take hold. This mountain bike thing just might be able to hold it at bay. We'll see.
Update on the Arm. Non yet, but the time is coming close. The next few months are going to say a lot. The pain is getting worse, not sure if thats a good sign but I guess pain is better than nothing.
Will keep apprised.
Friday, August 1, 2008
Bringeth the Destruction!
Friend who works at the plant invited me to this, pretty sweet. See if you can spot the unfortunate pigeon entering at the in opportune time....
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Nerdom
A good friend sent me a link to this site. I highly recommend taking a look. What it boils down to is a bunch of highly excited nerds talking about all the interesting things each of them has been delving into...
This stuff gets me amped
www.ted.com
There is a whole bunch of reasons why I really dug this following talk.
How it relates to climbing
Its relation to my arm situation
Its nerd value!
The masquerading coconut is most interesting!
Love it!
This stuff gets me amped
www.ted.com
There is a whole bunch of reasons why I really dug this following talk.
How it relates to climbing
Its relation to my arm situation
Its nerd value!
The masquerading coconut is most interesting!
Love it!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Beginning of the New Era
I've been watching climbing Vids on the internet all morning, going against my rule of never looking at climbing websites, mags or talking about it. Its a sanity thing for me. I fell off the wagon this morning needless to say. Usually it brings me down, start thinking about how I've been disconnected from the whole thing the last while.
Today was different, it got me amped. It may just be extra dose of prescription meds kicking in...
I've also been thinking about my last post the over the last 24 hours.
12 years of climbing all over the world, man it was good.
Bottom line, things change.
It's universal.
Time to get on with it.
Time to find passion in something else, leave the Demon behind again.
This may be it.
www.mountain-solutions.net
Its not barrel rolling icebergs in Newfoundland or tip toeing around Warheads in the Middle East but it's got it's moments.
There's something that gets your heart going when your in a 44th floor of a high rise in downtown Calgary making deals.
So, if you're in the Can. Drop me a line. I've been beefing up my "Nerd" centre...
Example below (This is similar what I've put together)
The Nerds will prevail!
Today was different, it got me amped. It may just be extra dose of prescription meds kicking in...
I've also been thinking about my last post the over the last 24 hours.
12 years of climbing all over the world, man it was good.
Bottom line, things change.
It's universal.
Time to get on with it.
Time to find passion in something else, leave the Demon behind again.
This may be it.
www.mountain-solutions.net
Its not barrel rolling icebergs in Newfoundland or tip toeing around Warheads in the Middle East but it's got it's moments.
There's something that gets your heart going when your in a 44th floor of a high rise in downtown Calgary making deals.
So, if you're in the Can. Drop me a line. I've been beefing up my "Nerd" centre...
Example below (This is similar what I've put together)
The Nerds will prevail!
Saturday, June 7, 2008
End of an Era
I'm out in Squamish at the moment wrangling some relaxation time. I can't seem to get away from the dreaded demon that pursues me though. And as the days increase into the summer the Demon increases in strength.
He runs me down and devours me.
Just to have myself re-awake and it happen again and again.
For many years there was just about nothing else in my life than scaling rock, ice and snow. It didn't matter where or when, with who or with who not. I was possessed and pursued by the demon up anything inclined.
The great thing about scaling is that the Demon lessons in strength and potency, the higher, the harder, the more time and distance traveled. And, for a brief time the Demon is abated and a free moment of solace is reached.
Where is my solace from the Demon now?
He runs me down and devours me.
Just to have myself re-awake and it happen again and again.
For many years there was just about nothing else in my life than scaling rock, ice and snow. It didn't matter where or when, with who or with who not. I was possessed and pursued by the demon up anything inclined.
The great thing about scaling is that the Demon lessons in strength and potency, the higher, the harder, the more time and distance traveled. And, for a brief time the Demon is abated and a free moment of solace is reached.
Where is my solace from the Demon now?
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